Lately

Argh, so paranoid! I hate how there's always something right in front of my eyes all the time then suddenly when I'd like to put it to use it goes missing. -.-''
Ah wells, it will somehow appear eventually; just like it ironically always does.
Vancouver Olympics coming up soon! - OH! and I totally did not realize but it's Fifa again this year! All these sport freaks out there are probably anticipating bad! Lols.
Oh my god! Exams in like 2 days! Then 2nd semester is starting. Stupid guidance office still hasn't given me my appointment..
Can't wait til the weather is nice and warm again; not enjoying the cold without some nice white snow. Would love some fun in the sun though! Can't wait til vacation time_
Oh and while I'm writing this, like to thank you someone for fixing something for me today that has been broken since like forever. Totally shocked me that it was able to be fixed, so glad I didn't throw it out before and actually saved it this whole time.
Alright that's all for today. Busy bees buzzing everywhere lately rofl.

-toodles, CEETRINH ;]

Misunderstanding Happiness

So did I mention I like Asian dramas? LOL
Like seriously I get attached to most of them because even though they're all the same general base of a story (some hot dude, some hot girl, another dude comes out to fight for her but she ends up with the first hot dude somehow after a gazillion twists and turns) I enjoy the plots that are written to form the story.
Some of them are seriously the most beautiful fantasies I could ever imagine going through.
So right now I'm following up on one call Autumn's Concerto (which I call Bootleg Winter's Sonata hence the name similarity LOL); This drama isn't exactly something you want to anticipate for because it's not extremely good that you just need to wait for every new episode; but the storyline of it just makes you wonder that you end up wanting to watch the new episode.

(I don't want to do spoilers in case anyone wants to watch it so this blog for today isn't really about the drama)

So a little summary of why I'm using the drama as the follow up of my blog for today is that the main actor of the drama loses his memory for 6 years and suddenly remembers everything and wants to take revenge on everyone, including the love of his life, the main actress (haha, typical).

Can you imagine forgetting about your entire past, and thinking that these few years you've lived are the truth? You never questioned about your past or wondered if anyone is lying to you because your entire mind is starting from scratch again learning bits and pieces of life all over again. But when you suddenly remember everything you get mad at everyone because you realize these few years have been the biggest lie anyone will ever go through. Everything you've accepted in these few years are only your misunderstandings because you don't want to think there's anything beyond the happiness you feel right now.
Why? Why must you take it all so bad. Go against everything when you remember that you can? Is it such a big deal? It's not something that should end up this way. It could have been an everlasting dream. Go back to the way you like it, but why do you want others to go through the feeling of losing everything just because it was an accident that you had to lose everything; at least you have a happy life even if it was a lie.

Would you rather live with misunderstanding happiness that's built on lies?? Or an everlasting torture that is truthful and honest?

-toodles, CEETRINH ;]

ahh one of those days;

today my horoscope told me i'd be a star LOL
and whoever doubted me will be wrong!
winter is becoming such a drag
because the weather is just total mood swings.
no snow for christmas, no snow for new years, oh lovely its going to be a WHITE VALENTINES
just truly amazing. dont you agree?...
today was hilarious; cuz i got my jay vee & happy dream (LOL)
by my side throughout 'dem school days. rofls.
just got to let go of those who got no time for their other friends.
i respect what you want to do; whatev' dont matter to me anymore.

-toodles, CEETRINH ;]

Sometimes, it's just not how you imagine it to be...

think simply, live simply;
just because :)

I believe in a time when there was innocence, a dream that was reality.
time rewinds, let the fantasy unfold.
no more, no less its time for a rest.

suddenly I forgot, how I feel about this world
suddenly I realize the world would not be much different if I did not exist.
I'll remember your smile, 'til the end of my days

silly words, why do a few of you put together become such a huge meaning
philosophy, a process of questioning why
have you ever wondered? I do.

I have candy in my hands, would you care to share?
I believe in a friendship to last a lifetime
if you're willing to include me in your lifetime

waking up, the sun has risen;
let's start another great day
with the first minute as a memory

how many memories, can you remember?
let's take a photograph to not forget.
(you can always burn the ones not worth remembering)

Farewell! it was lovely to have a conversation with you :)
Come again, I believe we'll meet another day;;

-toodles, CEETRINH ;]