Summer Twenty Ten !

This has honestly been one of the best summers I've ever had.
Meeting so many new people, experiencing so many new things, this entirely new feeling. I can not possibly believe how many smiles I've stretched and how little tears I've shed. Its been a while;

School is starting again in a week. So much to look forward to. So many more new people to meet. College life here I come! Orientation was just yesterday (such a boring experience to be honest), met some nice people and really hope to meet more (maybe an Asian? my program hardly has any of those lol).

This year has gone by so quick, but it's has truly been a great one. I've had so much fun this year and really hope that this whole growing up thing is going to get better along the way as it already has.

-toodles, Citrine ;]

P.s. He makes me smile from deep inside &0823 :]

Summmmer time!

Been so long since my last post. Its been a very long time where I felt like I had something to blog about as well. This isn't Twitter, no ones following or in need of keeping track of my life. All I can say is I'm so glad I'm just a step away from summer!
Been so hectic this year; the many moments of wanting to break down but finally getting through it. Lovely summer here I come!
I disliked a lot of things that has happened this year, but overall I'm glad theres so much more to look forward to than to reminisce.

Still have final "to-do's" so might as well finish before I let myself get comfortable.

-toodles, Citrine ;]

It's exactly as it is

This month has been so hectic for me; in a good way (if that's possible).
I've done so much, experienced so much and enjoyed every bit of it.
Still have a lot to do for the next few months before I can officially relax.
I have decided however to spoil myself and get a new cell phone, but first I would need to get a new job. I will be liberal and not go further-on on that subject.

Onto another topic, I feel like I have never had so many great friends at once in my life. And the most amazing part is that they're all girls. For once I have all these close girlfriends who don't cause me to deal with bullshit or drama. But if I ever have to I'm down for these girls because they brighten up my life.

I just want to say Hello, because they're so Amazing, and our Love Will Stay.
Til the next post..

-toodles, Citrine ;]

Experience

Mmm boy what a night it was!
Happy Birthday to zee lovely Lady 'Enn' though :)

So wow, how do I ever go on explaining what happened?
I think I'm somewhat embarrassed by what I did. Maybe I should be more clear on my actions. Thinking before acting.

Oh wells first time experience for all awkward atmospheres right?
On the other hand it was enjoyable and definitely should somewhat do it again but be a little more wise in acting.

Ladies and gents, got to be careful sometimes. Just because you realize what you're doing does not mean you are sober enough to realize whether you should be doing it or not.

-toodles, Citrine ;]

Close Your Eyes

Something I had the inspiration to write when I was watching this show..

"When we're not together I wonder what you're doing, I wonder how you're feeling. Are you having fun? Are you getting by? I walk to places seeing a fading image of where we use to walk. It's not another i think i miss you moment; it's more of a how are you? question. At this very moment, how are you? At this second that my heart takes a beat what are you thinking? I'm fine, but I wonder how are you."

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So that was a great way to start off today's blog.
I've been going through a phase I think. Trying to "find myself"? Just a girl's moment of wanting change I suppose. Or maybe to much scandalous girl drama in soaps that are getting to me?
Had a haircut, got my eyebrows shaped, got my nails done.. Yeah this lady is so totally ready for a party.
Question is where is the party? What parties are there these days that are worth going to? It's all been the same stuff. Drink, dance, hook-up. Seems like getting older means nothing much when all the youngsters these days are already going beyond and doing all these stuff.
But I guess that's the excitement to wanting to do all that stuff, because you're not allowed to.
Time for some people to step up to their game. Make a move or just don't play this game.

-toodles, Citrine ;]

I have decided

Hi Hi! Been a while since I've blogged again.
There's actually so much more other stuff I should be doing right now, but of course with the internet, you can help but procrastinate and just waste time away.

So I've decided to give myself a new nickname: Citrine. It's a quartz but it sounds kind of like my name. I call myself CEE TRINH very often now and Citrine technically sounds similar if you say it quick LOL. Some may understand, some may not. However I know friends won't get use to it, because they'll be either use to still calling me by my actual name or calling me by a different nickname. But I've decided I like Citrine (as a joke I'll accept the use of Citrus as well LOL). So from now on let's hope I'll remember to introduce myself as Citrine if people want a nickname to remember me by.
I think Citrine works perfectly because sometimes it's considered my birthstone as well (oops, birthday give away?? lol).

Anyways, it's been rough lately with a lot of stuff happening.

P.s. Blushing is embarrassing..
Anyways, until I procrastinate again,

-toodles, Citrine* ;]

^Hahah.
P.p.s. Woohoo for long weekend!!!

People who didn't start out as your friends

We wash and clean non-stop, we make delicious drinks with chewy bubbles, we call ourselves Tea Mates;
We are the employees who serve Bubble Tea. LOL.
I absolutely adore people who I've met at work, how can I possibly live without them? From tea mates to friends, it's so great to know all these people. Totally enjoy moments with each other, whether we be on shift or just out and about. (I'm no poet but I think there's this flow to my entry today).

Oh joy, March Break is relaxing. I'll be out of town next few days, hopefully relax some more before schools comes along again to ruin my life some more. Just kidding, STAY IN SCHOOL KIDS! School ideally should enhance our lives because it broadens our opportunities in the future. Yet it's such a painful process to go through at times.

Enjoy the time you got I suppose.

-toodles, CEETRINH ;]

Over Analyzing

Been too long since I've last made an entry.
Almost a whole month ago.
But wow, so much going through my head. I'm somewhat sad I'll admit.
Don't know what to say. It's like a million emotions flying through at once; even though I don't think there are that many emotions that exist.
Only a few more months to put up with! Hold on tight!
I really wish gLee would quickly return. I really need some good relaxing with the humor I get from it (haha).
Kind of need to update my iPod. I have like a downloading addiction; but the thing is I say I need to update because all the songs on there are kind of stuff that I listen to in the beginning and like never really select again on the playlist a month later. I don't like keeping songs I don't listen to anymore on there. Even though I have memory to spare I don't like to waste it.
I really need a nice day out with the girls.
Get a facial, have our nails done, shop, gossip, and totally just relax~
I honestly feel like a child sometimes compared to a lot of people around me. It's like I haven't experienced anything at all in life yet. (Well then again I'm not even finished my second decade of life yet, so what can I expect?)
I think I talk to much. Extremely tired.

-toodles, CEETRINH ;]

Nerves and cramps, not a good mix

So today is the annual Lunar Banquet at Harbord Collegiate.
It's also the last though unfortunately. This would all be due to the fact that teenagers these days no longer want to join in on the fun of Chinese Club. (Okay that sounded really lame as well but bare with me, it's only fair that in order to have the banquet someone has to be responsible in planning it).
I am attending and I am nervous. My stomache is like clenching even though there is no muscle there. Oh wells wish me luck and see how it turns out tonight.

On another note. Olympics! And Canada is doing fairly well. To bad I couldn't get my sweater in the end. Well I might get this other one but it's not what I originally wanted so I'm not to sure.

Okay I'm trying to open this wikipedia right now for something and it's not working at all and it's making me mad; I have two windows opened both trying to open the site and neither are loading, or rather they both say loading but aren't really getting anywhere...

Lord still like 20 minutes to go before I can leave. I've got so much to do today. So busy. Yesterday had to go buy last minute stuff for today including getting the cleaning liquid for my new contacts. Oh and as well I kind of scared my friend when we were doing the ScotiaBank spin the wheel promotion. Why you may ask? Well because I saw someone that I really did not want to see and hoped to never see again... I'm not being mean, I'm being honest. It was such a scare because from the corner of my eye the person was turned towards me and staring at me. Thank cow the person did not walk over to me or anything because I would not know what to say.

Anyways I got to log off now. Blog again soon.

-toodles, CEETRINH ;]

How I miss those old school days

High school drama; the days that we thought were the end of the world - the end to our lives. Little did we know they are actually the best memories that our lives will ever encounter. I reminisce all those days of gossip and silly fights that you try to be so mature about but then it turns out everyone is being childish in the first place about it.
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First drafted back in February (published September 1st, 2010); who knows what was going through my head when I wrote it. Possibly school becoming super stressful and I decided I needed to express a little bit, nevertheless I got over it.
Can't believe that within just a few years so much can happen, it's that never-ending constant: change.
I want to feel like it's the best day of my life everyday. I think we all want to feel like that. I love surprises; they make life so much more interesting. People who don't like it are perhaps just scared because they can't predict it. Never be scared of what you don't know, just think of what the worst possibility can be.

-toodles, Citrine ;]

What smells like Hobo???

Haven't blogged in quite a while. Well from before exams anyways.
So the title is weird, I know. It happened yesterday actually when I was out with Jay; We were walking around and then she was like "It smells like hobo!" and we weren't TOO surprised at first since the area would smell like something rotten most of the time anyways. However this smell lasted for a long time. Why? Well because the smell was actually coming from the guy in front of us LOL! Unfortunately because he is right in front of us I couldn't say anything to Jay because he'd hear me, I tried hinting to her though. But next thing you know she decides to yell even louder "Omg no, like seriously WHAT IS THAT SMELL?!". This time though she looks in front of her and we both stopped because she finally noticed that it was from that guy and now she feels bad; so after that we stopped walking for a bit so that the guy can keep walking first while we wait so that we won't be as near him anymore. Honestly I felt horrible afterward because I can almost guarantee that he heard everything Jay said.

Onto another topic though, 2nd semester has started. And all I can say is that I dislike one of my teachers a whole lot because he goes on repeating the same thing. Get it straight though, I had a teacher last semester who talked A LOT! But she didn't repeat herself as much as he does. This guy honestly has spent 2 going onto 3 whole classes talking about late and absences. Hello! Most of us are young adults who have attended school for like over 10 years, I do not imagine that we still do not know the policies and what not. Like holy fudge...

Anyways, I'm off to go get a hair cut. Blog again!!!

-toodles, CEETRINH ;]

Lately

Argh, so paranoid! I hate how there's always something right in front of my eyes all the time then suddenly when I'd like to put it to use it goes missing. -.-''
Ah wells, it will somehow appear eventually; just like it ironically always does.
Vancouver Olympics coming up soon! - OH! and I totally did not realize but it's Fifa again this year! All these sport freaks out there are probably anticipating bad! Lols.
Oh my god! Exams in like 2 days! Then 2nd semester is starting. Stupid guidance office still hasn't given me my appointment..
Can't wait til the weather is nice and warm again; not enjoying the cold without some nice white snow. Would love some fun in the sun though! Can't wait til vacation time_
Oh and while I'm writing this, like to thank you someone for fixing something for me today that has been broken since like forever. Totally shocked me that it was able to be fixed, so glad I didn't throw it out before and actually saved it this whole time.
Alright that's all for today. Busy bees buzzing everywhere lately rofl.

-toodles, CEETRINH ;]

Misunderstanding Happiness

So did I mention I like Asian dramas? LOL
Like seriously I get attached to most of them because even though they're all the same general base of a story (some hot dude, some hot girl, another dude comes out to fight for her but she ends up with the first hot dude somehow after a gazillion twists and turns) I enjoy the plots that are written to form the story.
Some of them are seriously the most beautiful fantasies I could ever imagine going through.
So right now I'm following up on one call Autumn's Concerto (which I call Bootleg Winter's Sonata hence the name similarity LOL); This drama isn't exactly something you want to anticipate for because it's not extremely good that you just need to wait for every new episode; but the storyline of it just makes you wonder that you end up wanting to watch the new episode.

(I don't want to do spoilers in case anyone wants to watch it so this blog for today isn't really about the drama)

So a little summary of why I'm using the drama as the follow up of my blog for today is that the main actor of the drama loses his memory for 6 years and suddenly remembers everything and wants to take revenge on everyone, including the love of his life, the main actress (haha, typical).

Can you imagine forgetting about your entire past, and thinking that these few years you've lived are the truth? You never questioned about your past or wondered if anyone is lying to you because your entire mind is starting from scratch again learning bits and pieces of life all over again. But when you suddenly remember everything you get mad at everyone because you realize these few years have been the biggest lie anyone will ever go through. Everything you've accepted in these few years are only your misunderstandings because you don't want to think there's anything beyond the happiness you feel right now.
Why? Why must you take it all so bad. Go against everything when you remember that you can? Is it such a big deal? It's not something that should end up this way. It could have been an everlasting dream. Go back to the way you like it, but why do you want others to go through the feeling of losing everything just because it was an accident that you had to lose everything; at least you have a happy life even if it was a lie.

Would you rather live with misunderstanding happiness that's built on lies?? Or an everlasting torture that is truthful and honest?

-toodles, CEETRINH ;]

ahh one of those days;

today my horoscope told me i'd be a star LOL
and whoever doubted me will be wrong!
winter is becoming such a drag
because the weather is just total mood swings.
no snow for christmas, no snow for new years, oh lovely its going to be a WHITE VALENTINES
just truly amazing. dont you agree?...
today was hilarious; cuz i got my jay vee & happy dream (LOL)
by my side throughout 'dem school days. rofls.
just got to let go of those who got no time for their other friends.
i respect what you want to do; whatev' dont matter to me anymore.

-toodles, CEETRINH ;]

Sometimes, it's just not how you imagine it to be...

think simply, live simply;
just because :)

I believe in a time when there was innocence, a dream that was reality.
time rewinds, let the fantasy unfold.
no more, no less its time for a rest.

suddenly I forgot, how I feel about this world
suddenly I realize the world would not be much different if I did not exist.
I'll remember your smile, 'til the end of my days

silly words, why do a few of you put together become such a huge meaning
philosophy, a process of questioning why
have you ever wondered? I do.

I have candy in my hands, would you care to share?
I believe in a friendship to last a lifetime
if you're willing to include me in your lifetime

waking up, the sun has risen;
let's start another great day
with the first minute as a memory

how many memories, can you remember?
let's take a photograph to not forget.
(you can always burn the ones not worth remembering)

Farewell! it was lovely to have a conversation with you :)
Come again, I believe we'll meet another day;;

-toodles, CEETRINH ;]